Well as time goes on I am doing much better with the self control issues. I have simply been keeping myself really busy instead of sitting around letting my imagination run wild.
I am noticing some mixed emotions while observing the W's behavior.
I still love her. When she smiles it lights up my world. But I am starting to see how she is acting with the OM.
On one hand she is starting to kinda disgust me. She has become a slave to her phone. She is constantly checking it. This morning she could not get her unlock code to work and threw a fit saying it was my fault that she needs to use a code. Perhaps if she was an honest person she wouldn't need a code at all. I told her that I had no desire to view anything on her phone. No snooping here! In fact I am afraid to see what is on it.
She had also said in the beginning that she needs space to find out who she really is. She has become suspicious and deceitful to everyone around her. Is this who she really wants to be? She is really starting to become paranoid of not just me but her friends as well. I am really feeling kinda sorry for her in a way.
The other day I was watching her literally run back and forth from house to car because she kept forgetting things. I mean running full speed, cursing and talking to herself because OM was waiting for her. It would be comical if it wasn't so sad.
The more she keeps up this type of behavior, the easier it has become for me to detach and view this situation objectively. It still hurts to see her go, but is atually beginning to become annoying LOL. I am really starting to feel bad for her. She is making herself crazy.
