Losing, in a curious way, is winning.

[Bridgestone]

but I hope you don't stop posting.

Things have been hectic here and yes I needed some time away from the emotions of everyone's sitch on here to concentrate on mine. I am a sensative person and pick up emotions easily (maybe I'm part Betazoid! so needing time & space for focusing on me meant not being as involved here for a bit.

He also for the first time last night opened up a lot about his view of himself as a workaholic and how it impacted his view of the M and me and the kids.

What were you thinking while this was going on?

A cross between thinking how much that song & dance has changed in the past 2 years, and just listening, not thinking to argue, but thinking to understand him better, if this is the 'new' H I need to understand his 'new' values & beiefs about himself & his actions.

I don't know. I guess I'd just be open and honest. Say "H, I'm apprehensive and nervous about this trip because of the awkward sleeping arrangements. It would be a great relief if you could simply accept that I need the space for my own reasons so that I can relax and enjoy the trip."

I like that.. thanks!

How's the writing coming along? Mine is at a stand-still. I have an overwhelming desire to 'organize' my stuff again to get in the mood. I feel as if I have stuff in portable file boxes, in 3 different places, and a few piles here & there.

I almost threw some things away the other day because other personal papers had piled up on top of them!! arggg!

Hate that feeling of what the hell was I thinking when I put that stuff there because I was not conscious of mixing personal papers with school work papers. I guess my mind goes other places & I am not in the moment. Still neeed to work on that one.

Off to take my D to her last babysitting clinic class at the Red Cross. I may stop at the nail place for a pedicure. Had one as a treat from a friend, for the 2nd time in May.. loved it. I think I may treat myself to one today.

Peace
Bridge