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[The Wifey]

Thanks (((Everyone)))

I came to understand yesterday that I am not the one that is confused about the relationship. I need to change and grow, but I am certain I want to be his wife.

I feel sorry for him in a way. He is so certain that I drove the wedge between he and his son that he could hardly look at me this morning. This is just one more way that he sees that I have hurt him.

Admittedly, I should not have called my son when I was upset, but the problems between them are their problems. I will not take ownership of them.

It sounded this morning like my h wasn't even sure he was going to come home tonight and might get a room instead. For the space, of course. I told him to plan on coming home and I would go to my sisters instead.

I am more committed than ever to DB. I will give him the space. I will pray for him while I'm away. I will distance myself and give him the space.

He needs his time and I am actually at the point where I need mine. I need to work on me for me.

I went to see a play last night and got home after 10:30. H had put my pillows and blanket on the couch for me. I went into bed with him anyways. I held and cuddled him. We didn't ml or anything, but he did say ILY.

He's confused, but he does love me. I have to take comfort and strength from that.

I think my own insecurity or lack of self worth is a childhood thing. It's basically BS and I just want to let it go. I am a good person that doesn't deserve to be left. I deserve a h that takes responsibility for his part and commits to working on our m. Maybe with enough space and with my own growth that is what I will end up with.

Maybe we will still end up apart.

Either way, I think I finally get it. I'm working on me for me.