Ready to GAL...Drop the Rope...Detach..2...

[ddstartingover]

Things have been really rough this week. It's been one full week since H has moved out. D11 has been playing in the Nationals softball tournament, which means we have been to games everyday this week. I invited H to ride with us Monday, but it seemed so awkward, I told him that we needed to ride separate since. I'm so proud of my D. She is doing so very well, and it's a joy to watch her success.

Things seem to have stabilized a bit since Monday night. H seemed less angry. I found out that ye was also upset because he thought his best friend was shunning him. He doesn't even know that I told his best friend and his wife what is going on. I stepped in even though he said not to, and contacted them and told them that he didn't think they wanted him to come visit. They were shocked, couldn't believe that he would think that. I had to explain that this state he is in is like extreme PMS combined with teenage boy syndrome---he's very fragile and volatile. I explained how important I think it is that he comes for a visit and talks, and hopefully it will happen soon.

This is supposed to be H's weekend. Hard to know how long we will be playing softball in this tournament, but we could still have games on Sunday----and I will be there, whether I get to take them home or not. I'm trying not to focus on time that I don't have with the kids. Funny, H actually said to me (Monday when we had the miscommunication about scheduling) that he doesn't think I should feel cheated on time with them (because I explained that it was hard for me to be alone --- without them --- at night) since he doesn't get the 8-10 hours during the day that I get since he works. And he isn't feeling like he's doing more for this family by bringing in the paycheck, does he??!!?? Some days I think that I hope he returns to the person he used to be, because this person is so very unlikeable..............

I'm moving forward with the construction/remodeling plans for the house. I worry that H will get upset when he sees the money being spent---but we still have almost enough to do the major things still available in our home improvement loan account. Construction is supposed to start Monday---so then my life will really be turned upside down!

Have to go to the dentist today. Have had a temporary crown for 2 weeks, and have had to take motrin this whole time because of pain---have never had that before, so I'm hoping the new crown takes care of it.

My oldest sister is coming to town for the weekend, so I will be able to keep busy visiting and preparing for construction, and not dwell on the fact that it is H's weekend with OUR kids..........it's so wrong!!!!