Thank you again, dear ((((friends))) for checking in on me! You give me courage to stand and be patient every time I need it.
I had a phone call today which unnerved me. A friend of mine (and H's), the one who sent the e-mail other day, has called me today. Basically she was telling me that I should GAL and take care of myself and concentrate on my and D's needs ( :)!) and let this idiot of a H of mine (she'd NEVER refer to him as an idiot before!)sort out his own sh!t. I've told her, thanks, but I believe he's done it already. She said, she doesn't think so.Turned out, H was in her house on her H's birthday, drank only water there. When somebody asked him, if he'd have a glass of wine, his respond was: no, I'm not going to drink now, not until I sort out my personal life. Which is what my F has thought of as a remark, showing that OW is still there and his personal life is still not sorted out. I don't read too much into what he said, but I'm thinking now, whether my F has told me everything. She sounded really MAD at him, and she said she has discussed our sitch with her H, and they both are of the same opinion (that I should take care of ME, etc). It was a well meant call, but it sent me head first back into panick mode!
It's getting increasingly difficult to sit tight :)!
Oh, I forgot something. Yesterday, when H called, I asked him when he's planning to come over (remember, at one point he said if he had money, he'd try to come earlier, Well, he has it now). He said: on 20th (the original date). And right away, before I had time to reply, he said: only because of my new job, you know, it's important for me to be here now, as they start a new project. I said, of course, sure, feeling disappointed but not letting it show. I was glad, though, he felt like explaining it to me.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08