Confused and Bewildered

[7 Year Itch]

Well H is totally onboard with me checking this out. I would have done it even without his "approval" but being that the agreement was for me to find full time employment to start next month, and this isn't for several more months, I"m taking that as a positive sign.

So tonight ended up being a GREAT night. H came to see the girls. I did my own thing, let him have his time with them. We actually CHATTED over dinner about his day, about my interview tomorrow, it felt like a normal family meal, instead of us sitting awkwardly at the table all together but each only talking to the kids.

So I was in my room, and he came in after getting the girls to bed. He always waits with me a bit, and we listen in D2's monitor to make sure she is really out before he leaves.

This is when in the past R talks have happened. But I'm a good week in without those, and I can see the change. So I was watching that new Johns Hopkins show, and he laid down next to me and watched a bit. Then we got gabbing about the interview again. I talked about how I hoped I could get D6 some discounted riding lessons if I got the job etc. He said that would be great. He then asked if I thought the guy would be flexible for me to do things periodically at the school. H knows I'm really upset about not being able to help at the school anymore etc. I told him I had no idea, I hadn't really brought anything like that up on the phone, and I'd feel him out more tomorrow.

So then we sort of ended up wrestling around again. IT's so funny, but I feel like a couple of teenagers at times. So we were laughing, and I told him to stop because I was going to end up all bruised before my interview and they were going to wonder what the heck was going on with me! LOL

So we kept laughing, and I kept making little comments like. "see, I know you want me" and he'd laugh and say."no, I think YOU want me". LOTS of flirting and boobage grabbing. Then tonight he told me that I had lost a lot of weight and I was looking really good. Then I asked him to show me some excersizes to lift my butt and firm up my tummy. I showed him what I had been doing ,and he gave me some new things to try (he's a HUGE work out guy, and I never have been, so I think he liked showing me those things).

Then he really started yawning and said he was dreading the drive home (hour and a 15 minutes away). I just looked at him with a sly look and said "well, you know you don't have to have that drive", and I sort of poked him playfully. To which he said......"yeah, yeah".

I told him to wish me luck tomorrow, and he said "Good luck. Call me afterwards and let me know".

Then he told me he'd for sure call me when they got the game schedule for Sat. and me and the girls can come watch one of their games.

Then when he was leaving I walked him out, and he was really lingering. We just stood in the garage and looked up at the stars. They are SO plentiful out here in the country, compared to the city where he is staying. I could tell he really missed it. Then I said, so can I get a hug? And he said, yes. Then I said.... "I'm gonna kiss you" and he said."no" (but he said it playfully), so I said............"that's ok, you don't have to kiss me back. I sort of like that I have something to look forward to. I know when you do it'll be my sign" to which he said, "yeah, I guess it will".

So anyway, hopefully this good feeling carries for awhile, because I'm really on a high after our great interaction tonight. Another week made through without him filing. Good right? Time will tell.

Well, I"m going to try to get some sleep. I'm really struggling with what to wear to this interview tomorrow. On one hand I want to dress up like I normally would for an interview to show I'm serious, on the other hand I'm going to be at an Equestrian center, and meeting with the trainer (will probably be out in the stables etc....), so would like to dress for that, but don't want to be too casual.

I'm sure I'll feel like and idiot either way, so I figure better to dress nicer than too casually.

Wish me luck. I'm really hoping this could be a good fit.

Chris