Summer...it finally came, and it's been pretty much the same as spring, only warmer. I'm swamped with kids, driving D6 to music lessons and summer activities, work, house, same old stuff. Can't say it's exciting, but it's sure a lot nicer than living in crisis mode. I'm also fighting with a sleep disorder...tired so much, and often frustrated with how much I need and want to do and the inability to keep my rear in gear.
On the M front, things are good. He's home and involved, does very little travel for work, seems happy. I think he still has some text/email/phone contact with OW, but I choose not to freak out over it...she is in a R, lives 12 hours away and his current actions indicate sincere investment in our family--that was definitely not the case before. I wish he were more open with me, he knows how I feel about it. But that's 'just not him.' I don't want to be harping on him, constantly dragging it out. So I let it go for now and watch him closely. I don't know if I'll ever trust him in that regard...but I don't agonize over it anymore.
We share physical intimacy, limited emotional intimacy, very little spiritual intimacy. I've struggled with that a bit, but have decided that overall, things are good enough that I can accept what he's willing to offer and leave the rest up to God. I'm happy. I'm blessed. And I'm still learning and working on myself.
