Wow...well thank you everyone. Ummm...note to self...don't read responses on iphone while waiting for your take out. There was a little throat clearing going on in there.
Everything said is true. Not sure what else to add. Ian - you have been like a brother to me as well and I can't even begin to explain how much your friendship means to me.
Yes I have outgrown her and yes both my kids and I are happier this way. And it is the path that my life had to take..and I'm at peace with that.
NMD...yup. I'm much wiser and more mature than I was when I got married. I understand a lot better now what is involved in making it work and I'm aware of the type of person I need to be with in order to make it work.
Oh Jen...once again you hit the nail on the head. I was reading all this and started to think about how it's just a normal part of the mourning process.
On Columbus Day in 1993 a very close friend of mine killed himself. Actually - side not...two nights before he did it we were all out and he turned to STBX (GF) at the time and told her that i was in her hands now and to take care of me....oh well for that. Anyway....For a long long time, not a day went by that I did not think about him. And although I now don't think about him every day...I still think of him a lot and there certainly isn't a Columbus Day that goes by that I don't get a bit of sadness in my heart.
I'm sure every 10/14 from here on out...some sadness will fill my heart. Sadness for what could have been. What should have been. But wasn't. Will I go on and live a great life without her in it...just as I am without my friend? Of course. But it's ok to mourn it too. And I'll allow myslef that. My M deserves to be mourned.
Jen it has been my superb pleasure my darling to talk you off of each and ever ledge I could. And OMG...I would like nothing more than to see you if you come the good ol' US of A!
Do we have a date yet? My sister lives in FLA. Uh oh..as does Tyson. Careful.
And OMG...I would like nothing more than to see you if you come the good ol' US of A!
