my crazy mess part 3...

[christarn]

S2~ I have no issues with strong and confident....not an issue! Ask any male physician in my area...i'm the biggest flirt, i show confidence in my work, i know which "shots" to call.

I do suffer now, from depression...it started about 6-8 months after my dad died. I am in treatment/therapy for it now, and am working with my physicians to manage my medication regimen.

When we very first started dating, I worked as a teller at a bank, he would come thru the drive-up window and we would just "chat" and I would just smile and blink...likw flirtatious women do...he was seeing someone at the time (remind you this was over 10 yrs ago)....my friends had a halloween party, i invited him, he showed up with her, i bet him 20 bucks he couldn't get rid of her and come back and party with me...well low and behold he left a few mins. later he was back without her...so we were talking, i was working my mojo...and BOOM...she came stormin in the door like no tomorrow...needless to say, he left her in the truck and came back in to see me(pattern here anyone???)a few weeks later she was history, he came thru the bank and asked me to his works christmas party, and from there...well here we are....

Self esteem issues...no, not really...i'm an average girl...probably underweight....lost it all this past year...would like to get my "booty" back! when i went to work today, i had mtgs all day, so i did my hair and dressed up...none of the MD's recognized me...i got a ton of compliments and was told how attractive i was. i think/feel ok here. As a sexual being...i'm a ok...lady in public tramp in the bed! and the H liked it

H is a mix likes down to earth, a little naughty, little nice...someone who isn't afraid to get their hands dirty...and someone who doesn't have their nose in the air....oh and someone who isn't crazy...which right now my head is spinning a little, so i could qualify for that one!

I can handle the bee stings...can you guys handle me? I may get whiney/bitchy!!! LOL!!! just kidding! One of his last pokes the "credit card" incident...i was heading down home to a family reunion, which he knew, he told me had a unactivated credit card for me and needed to get to me. I said fine lets me, I will be in town...oh and did we meet. There are 3 bars/pubs/taverns in a town of 700 people my family (due to drama) goes to one bar...he goes to all 3, he knows my family, he knows we go to one bar, after every get together...long story short, me & the family show up at the bar...he's making out with some chick. Can we all together say...NICE!! this bee sting hurt, but i held my head high, drank my drink...stayed with the family for a bit and left...didn't give him the time of day. walked past him to go the bathroom, but didn't say a word...just let him suck face with his flavor of the week...oh so made me want to vomit! Now when I got in my car to drive home, i balled my eyes out...but i never let him see a tear. I think i'm good, and like FG said, if i'm not prepared to answer a phone call if he would call out of the blue or something...I WON'T ANSWER!! I learned my lesson with "pool-gate"!!!

I think i've answered your questions S2!!

Let me know if you have more...i'll be around tonight and tomorrow. And in and out this weekend.

thanks for coming on board..TEAM Christa loves you
((((sandi)))))
christa