H has been really nice lately. He took me out to dinner the other night at another fancy restaurant. I have been cooking new and healthier meals at home, and he keeps complimenting my work and telling me how it beats any restaurants best meal. He has also been complimenting my looks a lot when I first see him. He has been giving kisses or hugs out of the blue sometimes instead of just recirpocating mine. It all seems too good to be real.
Tonight we have plans to go downtown to watch some bands play. And tommorow night we have plans to do dinner with his folks for the first time in a long time. I hope its not too awkward.
I guess every thing is going very well, but I still have these huge fears built inside me that my H will all of a sudden give up again. Till this day, my H really has not told me anything I have done wrong in our M. I have even tried asking him before in the heat of an argument, if I just didnt cook or clean enough to his likings. Becuase he gives me no ideas as to what I did wrong in our M.
They say, you need to truely listen and hear what the WAS is telling you in regards to what a LBS should change. But I am still grasping for straws. I guess I wish I could just figure it out so that I could make changes that are neccessary and feel less stess about fearing that he will change his mind again. But he seems to be happy with me right now, so I guess I should stop the worrying. It is just hard when each time he has left me, he never gives me any ideas as to why other than himself not being happy with his own choices with his business/career.
I guess another thing that I am unsetteled about is that we dont really talk a whole lot about what has happened between us. We also dont talk a lot about our futures together either. I think I am just jumping the gun, since we have only been piecing for about three months. But we only take our R day by day, with no talk of the past hurts or future dreams. I know I need patience.
