I do the meditation and the praying. I like the meditation right before I go to bed. I shut the lights out, light a candle, and assume the position (lol). Its about quieting your mind, relaxing your body, and concentrating. I think about the events of the day, my H, and whatever else comes to mind. I pray, ask for miracles, divine intervention, and trust in what I feel. It does help. It calms the mind. I do mini sessions in my office when I start to panic, and most of the time it helps.
I don't think your convo with your H last night was bad. He still loves you. You know that. Now, though, it is time for you to start concentrating on you.
It is different for everyone. For me, finding spirituality came in very handy, and in many different forms. I do go to church, see a T every two weeks, but also have seen a psychic and currently work with a spiritual healer. Working with this woman has helped me more than anything. But you have to find what helps you. Its about healing yourself.
Sometimes when we hurt, we need to heal ourselves first before we can heal the M. Think of it this way, if you are sick, you have to get well, because you are no good to anyone around you if you don't. This is the same thing, except it is an illness of the heart and mind. We have all come to this sitch through one thing or another, and it just takes longer to heal the pain because it is not something that can be a quick fix. It takes time.
Keep the faith, Kelly Jo. You are doing great...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
