Did our dialoguing again last night. He is really trying to understand me, and I am really trying to understand him. Still feeling closer to H. Feeling happier, too. I do remind myself that the happiness must continue to come from within, not from everyone else. I'm hanging around with my H more often...staying downstairs with him, talking, etc. We are going camping next week. The past 3 years I have taken my son without him. This will be the first year we have gone as a family. I'm excited for it, and my son is beaming about it. I should say this......my son has been so much happier all week...smiling more, laughing more...makes me cry to think about all the time his little emotions have been all mixed up because of us. He used to say to me, "Laugh, Mama. I like it when you laugh," or "That's the first time all day you laughed, Mama." My poor kid. No more. I feel like I was walking on this winding, curvy, rock, uphill path.....and now, the path is straightening and I am noticing all of the trees and flowers around it. Each day will get better.
