Hello. I have been posting on the newcomers site. I tried to post my link below, not sure if it will work. I need some advice, help, understanding. Long story short, married 17 years, things went bad in the last 5, no attention, begging him to go to counseling, him always saying there were no problems, OW appeared last year, caught him 12/28/08, been h$ll every day since.
We talked/argued/fought/cried for 2 hours last night. I have gotten so emotionally detached, trying to protect myself from any more pain, that I really want him to leave. I cannot take being in the same house with him thinking about him being with another women when I was begging him for help in our marriage. I do not know how to get over the hurt.
Question: I am so paranoid and upset. I think about how everyone at his work knows, looks at me with pity, thinks I am a bad wife, etc. I cannot get these thoughts out of my mind! It is driving me crazy. How do I stop thinking about the whole town knowing my horrible life?
