This is so hard for you, and you are being a very strong man. Many would not be able to do what you are doing.

This self absorbed behavior is her coping strategy to get through this. I couldn't ignore my child because he is young and I stay home with him, but as soon as my H would get home from work I would go upstairs and lay in bed. I kept trying to find SOMETHING that would take the pain away, make me happy, and help me get through the day. That's where books would help her so much. At first I did her "thing", but then I knew I had to do something....so first, the books...and talking on here, too. Does she have anyone to talk to other than the egf? I started realizing I had to back away from egf because she was making me back away from my H.

Keep the hope, and remember....patience.