Hope4us struggle, part 7

[Hope4us]

Yeah Pup, it should be a good time. One of the contractors that does quite a bit of work for us invited me and a couple of my guys to play in a member/guest outing at a pretty nice Country Club, so it'll be fun. Have to think on that praying thing.

H, I truly feel her affair is over. In fact, I know in my heart it is. Might have been some contact over that last months since I exposed to the kids, but I would guess it was only "how's it going" type stuff. After Monday night when I passed a little info her way about how OM was lying to her for at least the last 4 months or so of their "relationship" I think it hit her hard. I'm guessing now her distance is either WD because now she's really NC or just the reality of OM using her is hitting her hard. Either way, it's good for me.

Will she go to Retro? Don't know. But I do know that if she won't go then S16 and I will be moving without her. I guess I see Retro or the like as being something I NEED to know that she's at least willing to try. And if she can't spare a weekend to see if there's any chance for our marriage, then her "let's see how it goes" attitude just ain't gonna cut it. I've never asked her for much.....just say "I messed up and want to work on this" is all I'd need to stay and keep trying. Her going to Retro would be saying that to me even if she can't bring herself to say those actual words.

I sent her an IM a few minutes ago reminding her I was golfing this afternoon and wouldn't be home til 8 or 9 and all I got back was "ok". So she's still struggling with whatever demons she's fighting. It HAS to be reality hitting her. What else would make a person go from being up and friendly and engaging Monday after work to how she is now in just a few hours time?

Oh well....such is the life of us LBS's.