Hoosier, this is very very early days for you in the madness that has taken over your life, just be kind to yourself for there are no answers. Getting a job and easing your money worries is enough to even think about now. You sound strong-deep inside and you will come through this,whether you will ever understand it is a different matter. It has taken me years to really detach and I doubt I will ever be a 100% successful at it. My prayers will be with you.
