I dont know what it is about the last 10 days or so..but I have missed my W more during this time than since she left.
I went to a concert last night and there were some emotional songs that really set me off. All I could think about was her. I sent her a txt letting her know I wish she was with me. She never replied. I think in these scenarios the LBS is always trying to spin everything in a positive light. I'm sure that's what I am doing all the time. I somehow believe a non reply is a good one. As I mentioned earlier, she had the opportunity to reply 'I'm sorry' or something to that effect. I probably shouldnt have sent it. She didnt know where I was. I really wish she was with me.
I have been reading a lot on this site about many situations that have reconciled. Seems after a certain period of time, one spouse comes to an awakening of some sort. What creates the awakening? I'm sure thats everyones million dollar question.
Reading about these WAS realizing their mistakes gives me hope. Im not as optimistic just simply because my w and I dont really interact right now. I feel like the clock is ticking faster and faster. It's been almost 1 yr since the bomb and she certainly hasnt wavered too much on her decision. She had one period when she wanted to work on it and several other moments when she said she was doing a lot of thinking. I wish I had more hope to build on.
