nlt, it happened so fast!!!

as for your song "The prodigal son comes home", I think that is a definite sign...I have heard that a lot of them really DO want to come home...whether they tell US or not. LL has told a few people that he wants to come back but I have never really seen that but I have been so angry that I have been blind to a lot of baby steps.

I dont know if it is too late, I really believe that it is never too late. However, I think I have focused too much on him and not enough on ME. I need to push myself to the maximum that I can be and that is a serious undertaking! If he wants to come back then---then it is my choice to let him in if he never comes back then I have still done something positive for myself.

I have recently had surgery and I am feeling better...it has been a load off of me!!!

I just keep praying and hoping...

You do the same...eventually I think that the 'shine' on the OW will tarnish...just wait and be patient...but don't put your life on hold...try becoming the best you...

Anyhow, I don't think your H will hold the divorce ruling against you...Good for you for getting alimony! We don't have that in Texas. If we do happen to move towards D...I will need an EXCELLENT lawyer as LL is a lawyer (although not in family law). He knows a lot of lawyers. I hope it doesn't come to that but if it does it does.

Good luck with your bubby...

Vali


Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller