Thanks, naej. I just replied there. I'll probably get flamed for it, but that's okay. I'm a big girl. Just trying to get his attention; he may blow up now but he might think about it late. Or not. He doesn't listen to much else, thought this was worth a try--besides, part of it is a direct quote of something he said to me in a tantrum, as well as to many others. Hence the irony. Anyway--thanks.
Yeah, had to examine my need to have H admit to the A. Part of me feels that will defuse the power of the secret--maybe not. The other part is just simple frustration of him denying the obvious. Throughout this, I've felt at times he's tried to "gaslight" me, make me think I'm crazy, by flat out contradicting reality. And then there's the "how stupid do you think I am" aspect of things. And the "it's all your fault and I'm a victim" claim. Yep, for all those reasons I needed him to say it, especially with a witness. I really do feel less anxiety now--and it wasn't because the info he deigned to admit was not painful, just that it was finally out there.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012