Every time we have R talk it seems to devolve into a familiar pattern. I hurt her, she worked hard on our M for 13 years, the pain that she and the kids experienced was much worse than anything I experienced. Blah Blah Blah Basically, it's my fault and she takes no responsibility for where she is in life.
In her words, she has forgiven me for those hurts, but, I'm skeptical.
It's so damned hard some times. It seems like we are both so hurt that we can't empathize with the other one. W doesn't really apologize for things she does, she twists it so that it was my fault or that I shouldn't be hurt. I apologize, but, it is still thrown back in my face at a later time. I think that I need to evaluate this R closely and identify which things I think are open to change and which things are unlikely to change and move on from there.
It's still an amazing day and I wouldn't trade today for this time last year or the year before that.
