Bring on the Rain - Part 4

[SueS]

Thanks tal. I'll check on you soon. I'm always thinking of you!

Busy couple of days for me. I told D4 last night that we were moving, however, I didn't tell her that daddy is not going with us. It was hard to avoid the subject, as the place is filled with boxes. H did not want to talk to her last night and keeps saying....we'll talk to her when the time comes. H's anger is coming out at me. My friends and family keep telling me that I shouldn't be one bit surprised. I let him have it his way for all these years and now that I'm not bending, his shock is coming out as anger. Gee, I think I've heard that once or twice here too! I told my mom that I just hope that some day he realizes why I couldn't bend this time.

D4 did help me get her room packed up. H was clearly shocked when he got home last night and saw her bed taken apart, boxes packed and everything in her room ready to go. I'd also pulled out several items that we needed to go through. He wants NOTHING that has my picture on/in it and nothing that reminds him of us. He wanted all the wine glasses, as he said that they were "his" and that he'd bought them. I reminded him that 1 set of 4 were from our wedding. His response was.....then you take them or I'll just throw them in the trash. His main place at home has always been the kitchen. I told him to take everything from there, as he either purchased it or it was given to him. He told me he wants his knife set & a frying pan.....nothing else. I then went on to ask about the rest of the furniture. Nope....he wants nothing.....Sue can take it all. I asked what he was going to do. His respnse was.....What do you care? I've been hearing that response A LOT to questions I've asked the past week. It's either that or....Not that you care.....and he'll tell me something. I told him yesterday.... H, just because this is happening to us doesn't mean I'm a cold hearted b*tch that doesn't care about you at all. I do care and you're the father of someone very precious to me.

H told me yesterday that his license is being suspended for 90 days, however, in 15, he can apply for a home-work driving permit. For that amount of time, he will have to try to take a bus. I got a.....Not that you care...at that time. He told me that I shouldn't care because it doesn't affect me. AH, it very well could still affect me. We're still married and you're still on the title to my van.

H had switched his work schedule yesterday & today. He lied to D4 telling her that he was going to work early today so he could go golfing after work. I gave him the "I know better" look. He has tickets to a concert tonight. He bailed on helping me get D4 to school today too. He acted offended that I actually expected him to take D4 to school on a day that he normally does just because he'd switched his schedule. He said....Well, I can't possibly take her....I have to be to work early. No surprise. Thankfully I was anticipating that he'd pull that crap so I already had D4 ready to go. It got me in 1/2 hr. later than I had planned to be in but hey....I spent the extra time with D4 and poor H didn't have to go out of his way.

I had originally asked H to help me move this weekend. I'm pulling away from that thought, as my family has offered to come in a day earlier to help me. That would take the pressure off of having to get everything in order by Saturday. I still have a lot to do. H works until 1:00 on Sat. and D4 has a b-day party to go to. I may take them up on the offer.

Well, busy day here at work since I wasn't here yesterday.

Have a good one everyone!

SueS