Not sure what to do right now. I just have to detach and back away.
((((((((((Kelly Jo))))))))))
So you do know what to do right now!
And don't try to do anything to undo what's done. It's done, it's past. It is. Learn from it, but don't dwell on it.
Kelly Jo, you are not a failure. You are doing something that is really hard! It takes a lot of energy, and it is different than anything else you've ever done. There are going to be tough times along the way, but you can learn from them.
I think that a good thing to do now would be to think of what you could do differently, so that next time you feel that urge to talk you will know what to do instead. Since trying to think of that at the time is pretty much impossible!