Because now you are absolutely sure that doing this is never going to work...that it's going to bring you pain. And therefore you will not do it again, and therefore you will have more joy.
Do not argue the fact that he was unfair to call you a little girl. Do not argue again.
Just pull back. Do a 180.
That means you don't go back and do this again.
There is still hope.
(I did this too, you CAN do a 180 now. So do it.)
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001