Sg, I know the rules about the deacons. I read the doctors. I also read early Church fathers.
For me it was Ignatius of Antioch. In 110 AD he wrote a letter to the Symereans. Where ever you find a collection of bishops in Christ name you will find the Catholic Church. Catholic meaning universal.
Right back to dbing.
Wife shows up to pick up kids. Our cousin is here. Wife kicked him out. Had the bag packed for him. My wife goes to him and pull on his bracelet and says what are you doing here. He said just talking with Phil.
Then she turns to me and asks if I can pick up kids tomorrow. No sorry I can't get their early. She gets pissed but says ok. I said I tried to make a schedule with you yesterday and you didn't want any part of it, so we will just continue this week with the way it is. She gets pissed. I said sorry but I can't accomadate on every living thing. She says ok, I just thought you could beat me down there since I work till six. I can't leave work early for you all the time.
I'm thinking no honey you pay for the gas. Big girl. And no you are not playing your little trick on me again by getting off work and dumping the kids on me.
Well she said ok whatever and she says she has to go and take a shower and her stomach really hurts. I walk them out. I said are you taking that mattress board. She says it is all dirty. Well you asked for one and it was in the garage. Clean it. It is just saw dust. Well I want a new one. Ok then go buy one. I walk to her window. She says I just want to go my stomach hurts. I said ok and I kiss her cheek.
Then I stand there like a stupid butthead and wave to them as she drives away.
I'm pissed because she comes in and gives a friendly gesture to our cousin snapping his bracelet and what do I get.
Just when I thought my life was improving. Now our cousin is staying here.
At least I feel good. No more depression. Yeah cried today before I left work. Something SG said. I was helping another DB'r and she said listen to lostPhil. I lost it.
I have to find what works. Being firm and calm. Not a doormat. Not giving in.
I realize this has to be for me. For the kids. It's not about her. I am no longer responsible for her. I think I'm getting off the ride.
Now I'm wondering if her stomach was hurting because she is finally starting to think about her actions. Did she just give herself an anxiety about the tornado warning? Did she just eat something bad? Is the stress of all this getting to her?
Yes I have compassion for her. I feel sorry for her. I would alleviate that stress in a heartbeat.
