dealing with death would be a lot easier than dealing with parents d..if dad were dead that would be why he weren't here....it's easier to move on from...knowing the complications of why he's not...dealing with holidays and should I invite him because I want him here but know that I would have to deal with mothers feelings and crap my own feelings of "pretending" it just sucks...plus then there's the fact that I tolerate moms bf...gee he didn't have anything to do with the d infact she didn't even meet him til long after the d...dad can't understand why I wont have anything to do with his gf...and infact am disgusted just by the mention of her name.
I hate seeing h's parents together (as crappy as their m is) I hate that they come as a unit (well most of the time) I hate that they are more available...I hate that my parents were crappy parents (oh what? how could LL be the person she is if she had crappy parents? because I watched and learned from the mistakes they made but had no guide)
I guess I should just get over it...what would be really nice would be to just take my h and kids and go live far far away...far away from his family and mine...to simply enjoy OUR family instead without the complications.
