Maybe, I should just go for the D, and get it over and done with. Doesn't mean he can't come visit on weekends still. I just want to move on with my life, and I feel like I am stuck in this weird, limbo-like M. He's not going to change, or suddenly wake up and realise the irretrievable damage he has done. There is just too much water under the bridge. I care about him, but I don't love him anymore. I'm not even attracted to him anymore, either. If I had to discover today, that he has another OW, I doubt it would bother me (or surprise me). It would give me a good reason to initiate D proceedings quicker.
Such a pity, but it's pointless my hoping for something that is dead and gone, and not coming back, as far as I can tell. I think we just wasted a lot of time, these last 3 years since he ended the A and we started 'piecing'. But, at least I tried, and maybe he did too, in his own way.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
