Quote: So...DID you sweep him off his feet? Sorry, just that it's been almost three weeks again over here!!!
not until everybody left and we went to sleep...ok so I wouldn't let him sleep.
I would prefer that he inititate something himself again soon though...it's nice to not be rejected ALL the time but being aproached would make me feel much better too!
but I'm not going to complain about THAT right now. just trying to deal with it and enjoy all the rest...he is who he is and is not likely to change his drive...it has always fluctuated...that I can live with..the rejection of my advances however I can't live with...so for now it's ok..but if the rejections start to occur again with more frequency there will be trouble.
other than that department things are going very well.
I've been off the bb for a long time due to H's illness and other things, but have recently started posting again over on newcomers. Don't feel like a newcomer, it's already been a year since bomb.
I am so happy for you that things are really working out great. I'm going to have to go through and read all your posts. Today PMA is kind of down, so I need something to hold on to.
Quoting lostlove: haven't been posting much lately as I feel I'd be boring you all listing my positives...that is not to say that every once in a while I'm not bitten by the insecurity bug or the self doubt monster but I seem to manage to make sense of those feelings when they come about.
Quote: when I get down as long as I realize that it's me that's getting down and allowing myself to get down I can get out of it much quicker.
something to keep in mind all you piecers and those who may someday be piecers...it's not always about you...looking for reasurance from your spouse is one thing but expecting it is another. make yourself happy!
Not only do your positives not bore me...but the above 2 thoughts are exactly why I come to read your thread....WISE words from a WISE woman!!!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
ok yes everything is going along very well, no real complaints from me regarding the r.
had a great weekend.
the only thing missing is passion.
h was never really big on passion to begin with though. he's always been the low drive partner in the r.
what is it I'm looking for?
I try to pay attention to what I am getting...
I do get an occassional stray hug, a random kiss on the forehead or cheeck, a pat on the back or butt, what is it that I'm missing? am I infact missing anything at all or anything worth missing?
I don't know.
but other than that...I'm pretty damn content and I think h is too...actually on sunday while he and son where inside and dd was napping I couldn't just sit so I started to stain the new picnic table he brought home...he peeked out the door and saw me and smiled...those little smiles mean alot to me.
LL, I am still reading your threads and also getting a lot of wisdom from you. Thanks, you are helping me and it appears many others. (That's one of the silver linings, I guess). I think that those small pats, kisses, smiles, and special looks are the seeds that may lead to some form of passion that you are looking for. Hang on to all of that, continue to be patient with the shift and small changes. You are encouraging us all....even tho the hard moments and struggles of self-doubt creep into our heads. Keep yourself happy and take care. Mooka
LL..things continue to sound good...don't know what to tell you about the passion thing..my h was the one who always had a higher drive..even at 45..but since all this happened he is the one that stopped all contact..and I miss it(him too!!)I took for granted all the little times he was flirting with me..
like you said you recognize the little things and they all add up.
Quote: I started to stain the new picnic table he brought home...
Christ, LL! When are you going to start your own show on HGTV?!?! BTW, I love that channel. My W and I watch it all of the time. I'm kind of an amateur woodworker, so while I love to build, I don't quite enjoy the "finishing" so much.
Glad to hear things continue to go well, LL. Hopefully, over time, the passion will come more often. Do you find he's more willing when he's not working so much? Perhaps he'll find the work/home balance, and in that balance, discover new things, LL.
Sorry, just that it's been almost three weeks again over here!!! 
