Do you promise? I just really need something positive right now. It could be anything, just something positive. Oh it should be what I see as positive, not what is going to ultimately turn out positive in the long run.
If you couldn't tell I am high maintenance, like Sally in When Harry Met Sally.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Take at look at all of us wrapped around your little finger. It is because you are you. The you online is the same you in real life. You just need to open your eyes and see her.
Me45 W35 M6 T8 D16 SD11 D0 Dec 07: Bomb July 08: Busted! Thread
Yeah, I have gone through lots of medical issues with S12. He had surgery when he was 3. I am blessed by them everyday. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I guess I wanted something outside of what is already here. Guess I am just being selfish. Not good.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I guess I wanted something outside of what is already here. Guess I am just being selfish. Not good.
kat
First of all, you're not selfish and even if you were you deserve to be going through what you're going! I plan to be really selfish and nasty when my D is getting to the end and eats lots of chocolate (have you done chocolate therapy yet?). If you get through this, you can get through anything, right?
Hey, today at my kids' swimming lessons, I was talking to one of the moms and we have so much in common! (She used to work where I did and knew all my co-workers). She was telling me about her 1st marriage, she discovered him cheating with OW, and tried to get back with him 5 times (went to the D L all 5 times and put down retainers) but finally ended it. She's now happily remarried, and has at least 2 kids with her 2nd husband (I've met her 2 D's). She said she really believes God has better things in store. I believe that too! ((((Kat))))
I just saw this, I read Karen's but didn't see you squeezed in between lwb and Karen. You brought tears to my eyes again.
I am sure tomorrow I will be better, not so bent out of shape like my car. lol I have moments where I know I am a strong person. I have had to be lots of times and right now...is just the hardest. I don't see any rhyme or reason for all of this pain and disappointment. I doubt myself and wonder how I am going to finish raising these beautiful kids alone. Like I said I am just overwhelmed at the moment. Worried about the future. This month hasn't been great you know, just seems like one thing after another. I am really just wanting a break.
Karen, I wish you were right here. You made me smile while I was crying.
Like S15 says, I need to look towards the future and stop looking at the past. Smart kid.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Kat, I think it helps when you post your feelings. It helps to get them out. And its ok to have a bad day. I know I do. Like your son said, we need to stop looking at the past. He IS smart.
You will see the person we see. You are just fine. You'll be just fine. I feel the same. Constantly thinking about this. Maybe I should do that. I should have done this. What if I did that.
Bullsh**!
Life gets better today, because I decide to make it better today. I'm sure that you have no idea the people that want to get to know you. Because you are you. Once you are out of this crazy sitch, you will be amazed, I bet. I have friends coming out of the woodwork coming around. I'm going to reconnect with them. It has to be a sign of something.
And I loved Sally.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
I remember that Harry told Sally, when she asked "which one am I?" (high maintenance or low maintenance), "You're the worst kind. You're high maintenance and you don't even THINK you're high maintenance."
