things continue to go well... haven't been posting much lately as I feel I'd be boring you all listing my positives...that is not to say that every once in a while I'm not bitten by the insecurity bug or the self doubt monster but I seem to manage to make sense of those feelings when they come about.
h seems happy, actually I think this is the first 4th of july weekend that h has taken completely off...I mean he actually hasn't left the house since thursday when he got home from work..ok there was a run to the store to get ice but other then that, here he has been.
it's been a nice weekend had a cookout fri then I showed everyone how nuts I am (ok their words not mine) by lighting off some awesome fireworks.
sat mil & fil came to visit and then h's buddie and w came to visit so more fireworks..
today (sun) it was just h the kids and I...it was an awesome day of just chillin out.
I did walk into at least one conversation that h was having with one of my friends about "us"....I got the scoop afterward but didn't get verbatum other than something like he adores me...it's not just the kids...it's me...oh and he also pleaded with my friend (who is male even if gay) that he "didn't do anything with her".
yesterday I said to h in plotting out the day that after I put dd to nap I would sweep him off his feet...h replied you already did that...I questioned when as I didn't think we were refering to the same thing (and obviously we weren't) his response was...a long time ago. (awww isn't that sweet)
so as I said things continue to progress in a possitive direction.
h making references to going away as a family at least once over the summer. seems all I have to do is plan it!!
still also making reference to just the two of us going away (someplace warm) in the late fall early winter.
when I get down as long as I realize that it's me that's getting down and allowing myself to get down I can get out of it much quicker.
something to keep in mind all you piecers and those who may someday be piecers...it's not always about you...looking for reasurance from your spouse is one thing but expecting it is another. make yourself happy!
