I was just glancing over some of my old threads and noticed that when h first expressed his confusion and started to once again spend some time with me...he was confused and boy I must have been a hell of a lot stronger then! he was admittently still in communication with ow then...how the heck did I put up with that?
anyway...I really do like to hear you folks all thinking I'm an inspiration..I don't feel much like one. I am simply me...took the journey for what it was...learned some about myself...learned some about relationships and well realized that everyday I still have more to learn.
I hope to someday have enough confidence in my marriage to write a letter to michelle thanking her...but for now I still feel reluctant...I don't know why...I suppose that's a normal feeling....perhaps once a year of h's return is under our belts I'll feel more confident in calling it a success openly.
things still continue to go well...every once in a while I am plauged with fear of being manipulated but then I take a step back and tell myself not to waist my energy on negative thoughts when they are simply my thoughts.
