Please, do not give up hope. Instead of praying for God to deliver you from all this, ask him to HELP you THROUGH it.
Last summer, I found out my beautiful then-47 year old wife, and mother of our four children, was having an affair with her 28-year old personal trainer. I was DEVASTATED. I too, felt hopeless. But I asked God for help, and was continually amazed that nearly EVERY DAY, He seemed to equip me with JUST what I needed to get through that day, or He put someone in my life to help me, or allowed me to hear something either encouraging (when I needed it), or that would stir my righteous indignation (when I needed that!) in order to get me off my timid butt.
Lord, please help MC69 see some hope in his situation, and please send him helpers to comfort him.
