holdingon,

I'll do my best to answer your questions...

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How do you deal with the day to day when nothing seems to be happening?



you make things happen for yourself...get out and do things for you and enjoy life...take a class...join a club or start a club ( I started a book discussion group) get things going on in your life to keep you busy but make sure they are things that you enjoy.

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I am trying to show that I can get on with my life. Does that show him that I am okay with how things are and prevent him from moving forward? And if I bring up MC now, will that show him that I am still waiting for him? It seems there is no good answer.


it shows him that you are an independant individual and that you wont crumble just becuase he doesn't know what he wants...

I wouldn't mention mc to him at this point..it's pressure..

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He is calling every night and asking what are we doing. I am getting further into the hole of depression. I find it hard to get up and get moving. I think about the sitch all the time. I don't know how long I can go on.



the fact that he is calling is a good thing...but the fact that you are finding it hard to get up and go about your life is not...I assume the we is you and the kids? if so...the plan to do things with them...enlist a friend or another mother in your area to do things with..plan activities and field trips and get out and go live life.

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I pray all the time and the only message I receive is to wait and be patient.


that damn patience stuff...I swear they should sell it in pill form someone would make billions...yes lot's and lot's of patience...I must ask..when you do pray what is it you are praying for? when I would pray...I didn't pray for me other than to ask for strength...I most often prayed (or asked god) for h to find whatever peace he was searching for.

hope that helps some..

LL