Sending positive vibes to my H!

[pisces9]

very well! he came and got me at our house- i gave him his card and he said it was sweet and said he didnt get me anything bc he wasnt sure what do to- i said thats ok...then we went to a nice dinner and he talked a lot about his work sitch which is rally bugging him...i just validated and listened a lot..its interesting bc i used to get distracted or change the subject after a bit of him talking bc i would think he was done with the subject- but he just keeps going and going when i kepp listeneing..anywho- since he got me at my house i asked him to come in toe Hot Tub again- we both smirked at that one- when we got in the HT he started rubbing me and that was the first tiem since we have been S that he really touched me at all...well that lead to kissing and major cuddling in the HT and a few other things...but hew actually stopped us from you know what'ing...but continued to kiss and hug and i said im never letting go- ha ha- then we went inside bc between the heat of the HT and us we almost passed out- then we cuddled on the couch with our doggie at our feet..and we kissed more, cuddled more...he said you drive me crazy, but im not ready yet ( for you know what)..i was just quiet and kissed him..he said these were the best kisses he has had in 10 yrs...then i said you can stay the night and we'll just spoon- he said yea right- just spoon- so he ended up leaving after a bit more kissing and cuddling!

ill see him for some house paperwork stuff this week...so thats where we stand.

to tell you the truth im elated and i guess shocked that this happened- but also a bit guarded and not sure of everything...it did seem a little inhibited on my part too when it got a little more physical..he is also not the type of guy to use intimacy to patch everything up so thats really nice...

sooooo- ideas? what do you guys think? what to expect next?

im so happy and little scared. weird feeling.

ps. thanks TD- he was the one who moved out but i didnt stop him. so i guess he will tell me when he's ready...i do want a definite statemnt that affirms he wants to be back together.

wow wow we wow~!