hey there, welcome. Acceptance is the hardest part, to accept that what was once/could've been is now gone, but that is the thing you must focus on. I highly recommend "the spiritual divorce" it will help you to use the D as a tool to propel to new heights emotionally/spiritually.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.