She said the following, apologizing twice for hanging up quickly on the phone:
"I apologize for being short last night, but I don't know how else to get my point across."
The way I responded (I can finally see) was controlling and wrong:
"I understand. I want to think that other guys aren't hitting on you, and that you don't want that because you would rather work things out with me, but I can't worry about it anymore. I'm letting go. I told you that you know how to get ahold of me, but I'm not really interested unless that means you want to try. It is totally uncomfortable to put my trust in you given the situation, but it needs to be done if anything is going to move ahead.
You want to get your point across? Meet me halfway and do something that is uncomfortable for you by opening up and letting me in."
Best part is that I see where I should have stopped. I should have stopped at "I understand"
She responded to this (not surprisingly) with:
"I will not do that untill we can talk without getting caught up in the same conversation all the time."
I'm going to respond with "Understood."
Should I say anything more? I was thinking of praising her for making the decision to go to my cousin's bridal shower, since she had expressed anxiety over the uncomfortableness she would feel.
Me: 30 W: 27 Married: 9/2007 ILUBNILWU: 1/2008 W moved out 5/24/2008 W suicide 8/25/2009