I can understand you being shellshocked and scared. It does still happen with me from time to time and everything seems so surreal. As time goes by it does happen less and less.
Being scared is not a bad thing. It teaches you that you do have the courage to go forward and do what you think is right instead of curling up in a ball.
I am not sure that if I am stronger then anyone else. For as long as I remember I have always had a disconnect with myself and trust issues. When it came down to the I want a D, it flipped a switch that had been off for as long as I can remember.
With that I was able to write her a letter and get a lot of my chest and share my inner feelings. With it came a certain peace withing myself and feeling of starting to become whole. The price was high though.
So as far as stronger, not really. Wiser and more empathic towards myself and others, yes. It hurts but helps.
The shock does wear off and some of the fear when you accept the situation that you are in. Stop by anytime and yes the people on here are great.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
