Thanks, Neil. I know you are right. BTW my counselor said it is ok right now that I can't say I'll be ok without him. I know I will get through, but I know if the day comes that he calls us done that I will never be the same. I was relieved that she told me it is ok to feel that right now.

We can't all start out with great strenth. Sometimes it takes a while to get there. And it is ok that I feel that way.

It is somehow reassuring to have her tell me that. I'll get there, but that I just haven't yet.

I love him. I love him with all my heart and soul. We are in God's hands and that is the best place to be right now.


Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08,
S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012!
Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.