Hi glam and peace- I know...patience...more patience...and even more patience.
My H didn't make it to the C tonight...so, I showed and had to pay for both hours since my H didn't cancel in time. My H was very apologetic but he says he got stuck in his meeting...whatever. Why did he schedule that meeting then?...or why didn't he cancel the C beforehand?....grrr!!! I didn't let him know it bothered me at all...I just acted as if...I am getting so good at it but is that because I just don't care that much anymore??? Anyway, my H wanted to schedule appointments again for next week (hopefully my H can make it and hopefully I can make it...my S may have games). I think if we were moving any slower at this we would be moving backwards.
The C pointed out tonight that we are making progress since my H is making more consistant positive movement toward me. We also talked about my H having a crisis or depression. He said the crisis is a symptom of the depression and he explained how the type of depression my H is experiencing is such that he disassociates himself with everything he once enjoyed. It is also positive that my H is showing many signs of reconnecting with some of the things he used to enjoy (cooking for one). I asked the C if my H and I were to reconcile, is it possible that my H could go through something like this again...thought about it and said it is possible...but also said there are no guarantees in life with anything.
My D leaves on her trip tomorrow...she will be gone 11 days...I will miss her soooooo much...I wish I was going with her...thank goodness I have lots to do to keep me busy.
So I am here...enjoying my at the moment very busy life. Things aren't perfect but the sure as heck could be a lot worse.
