So, despite me telling H to not MAKE the kids call me to tell me goodnight, he did anyway. Maybe he thinks it's a nice gesture?? Just a reminder that they are not sleeping in my house.

When I talked with H Saturday night I told him again he could take the bunk beds from here for the kids to sleep on, as well as bedding, or anything else he wanted. He said he didn't want to "disrupt" anything at the house. I told him it's already disrupted, taking "things" would not make it worse. He at least agreed that they could bring their pillows/bedding, but tonight before he came to pick them up he told D15 that all they needed was clothes. I know, I know, I know, detach and forget about it-----but this means he's making "his place" THEIR place and it pisses me off! They are OUR kids. They are my LIFE. They are all I have---but now I don't have them at all---they are at "his place."

I remember a few months ago telling him that they were all I have. He said they were all he has too. I told him no, that he had a life, he has a job---the kids are my life, they are my job. He didn't respond. Now I just want to scream that you have OW----let me have the kids while you decide what you want............sorry, very rough night. Big house--empty, alone.


Me 45
M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08
D 18, D 14, S 12