Lookie lookie at the woman who's taking care of herself! Aren't you the most incredible one!
I loved your statement of being, what you expect, need (not want) in a relationship. How did you feel when you wrote it? Did it take time? What was it like? What were your thoughts when you sent it?
Over the course of time I've found DBing is a technique, not a Bible. As I've grown in confidence, I seek out more and use whatever works. In my case it's all about healing me.
Did you get what you needed from his reply? Do you see any next steps in the near future? Where are you.. with all these changes going on??
Thank you for the great vibes your sending out about my sitch and my possible job opportunity.
Journalling
So, what has W2G been up to lately? I've been searching for "fit flops" and not having much success. Seems they are sold out. Supposedly a new shipment is coming in this week so I've got my fingers crossed.
While I was looking for my fit flops on Friday at the mall.. H met D2 and I there (spent about 1.5 hours together) and I got a wonderful new dress to wear to my sorta kinda job interview. Now I just want to get a nice pair of shoes too (on top of the fit flops that I GOING to get). H got himself a t-shirt and a neat hat. D2 just loves moving clothes from one rack to another.
Saturday. Received a couple of phone calls from H but did not see him. But bigger news is that D2 and I went to Canada's Wonderland together.. and she went on her first rollercoaster. It was one of those kiddie type ones (thankfully otherwise I wouldn't have had the courage to sit with her and she's too small to sit on her own) and I bought the picture they took of us on it!!! She is just cute as a button. So we went on a few rides and then changed into our bathing suits and went to splashworks.. We were there at the park for over 5 hours!!!!!! It was a good day, although I did get a bit too much sun.
Sunday was a very dreary and rainy day.. so D2 and I walked around the mall to get out of the house but still be out of the rain. Then we took a drive to visit a friend.. so D2 played with friend's S5 while I got to shoot the breeze with my friend and her H. It was very nice.. Then D2 and I went out for dinner.. then came home and watched a movie.. then went to bed. Felt like a fun filled weekend but was exhausting! Oh, and I guess I should mention that I had a few calls from H on Sunday too.. and he sent me a picture from his phone of him in his hat. I guess he received a lot of compliments on it and thanked me for picking it out for him.
Hugs all, W2G
PS. Next steps. Find shoes to go with my new dress... Get my hands and toenails done.. and if time permits get my hair done all before my interview next week.
Do they make those things for men.....my legs could use a little toning. I could also use a pedicure. I never actually had the D7 toe nail painting weekend.
Still no luck with the fit flops... but I assure you... they will be hunted down and bought!!!
Yesterday H came over and we went to Wonderland with D2 for the day. It was really nice. H took the day off but he did do some work over the phone. D2 had a blast and H and I had a lot of fun. We went out for dinner afterward. When we got home H's tummy was upset so he lied down. Woke up at 12:30am and went home to the apartment. I saw he sent an email when he got to the apartment saying that he arrived and that he had a wonderful day with D2 and I.
He also sent another email around 3:30am. I'll post it here so you can see it.
Quote:
I just wanted to let you know that i have every intention of staying together. I love you {insert W2G's first, middle and married last name here} i have never stopped loving you...i have lost my way yes, but stop loving you never.
I will spend the rest of my days trying to make up for the pain that i have caused you but first things first is making sure we cement our fibers back together again.
Its been a tough road and one i wish i was never on. I will take from it though and make myself a better man for me and for our family.
I am just up thinking about us and i wanted to let you know that.
Love Me
That was a really nice thing to read and actually brought a tear to my eye when I did.
The painter guy is here painting right now... man he's quick. H stopped over with my season's pass to wonderland because I forgot to get it back from him. So I thanked for his email.. and he responded with a your welcome and "I mean it".
So, that's it from me. I'm anxious with the painter guy here.. because it's bringing me one step closer to putting the house on the market. And although I'm excited I will admit I also find the prospect kind of scary.
I'll be hanging out at home today while the painter is here and then will go get D2 from daycare once he leaves! Then I have groceries on the agenda. D2 loves going to the grocery store.
Hugs ((((Everyone))).. and thank you for taking the time to read this rather long update! W2G
I think that email has in it everything all of us LBSs wanted to hear at some point in our sithces. "Awareness", takes responsibility of his actions and the pain he caused you, wants to make the best out of this, wants to improve himself, has you in his future thoughts, tries to reassure you, emotion.... I hope you realise what a big step that was for a DAM (even a junior one)...
That's sweet of you to say! Thank you!