Bring on the Rain - Part 4

[SueS]

Rob, I agree. He is still in the nasty/angry/blameSue phase, it just wouldn't be worth it.

Still would be fun though wouldn't it??

Hey there! H and D4 are gone to the park, so I thought I'd take a few minutes here. Nothing said by H when he got home. I was in "cleaning" mode. I'm trying to get some things done tonight, as I'm off tomorrow. My intention is to get a TON of things cleaned and in order. I was sooooo upset last week and just in total upheaval with my emotions. As hard as it will be if I have to again explain to H that it's not right that he goes with us.....this time actually telling him NO, I'm ready again for that peace. I was out of my mind scared last week with my emotions. This week, I'm feeling better. Gee, wonder if it has anything to do with the wonderful posts and emails I've gotten for support . Wish I could just reach out and give you all an actual hug right now. I know that if I ever meet any of you in person I'll probably break down in tears because of all the wonderful support!....Good tears of course!

My family is set to come in town next weekend. I worried about some things with them in town and any interaction with H. I'm moving once again toward looking forward to them coming. All my nieces are coming too. One just turned 18 yesterday and I look forward to doing some birthday stuff with her too. The oldest one will take some time with D4 if she needs it too. I am blessed to have the family I have.

There's a part of me that has been wondering over the past few days if I should initiate any contact with my FIL. He knows we've been having problems, but not to what extent. I love my FIL and I know he'll understand why I can't allow H with me, but let's face it, when it comes down to it, H is still his son. My FIL told me on my 40th b-day.....Sue, I think I know what he's up to again....Honey, please don't take it from him anymore. Maybe I'll see how things go over the next month and I'll reach out to him later. I will have a relationship with him due to D4. I know that at least for a while anyway, I'll be his main contact with her. I can't think of the last time H called him so he could talk to D4.

Well, time to get busy. Have a good evening!!

SueS