By the way, she comes back over there to use her womanly features against you like she did on the 4th...either deny her or tell her you're sick, or put yourself in a detached place in your mind and just make it about the "deed"...the "deed" got you all negative brother.
I was gonna ask a question about this lastnight if you had another oppurtunity to be with her if you would. I ask that cause this time you probably would be more cautious knowing what it brought upon yourself. I know if I get in that sitch again, Im gonna have to maybe act like I will then just say I cant. This is probably what I would say "Im not good enough to be your husband, I not good enough to be with you on this level anymore".
Oh man, I was just writing about knowing she hasnt filed but went back and read where she said she was going to. This might just be a scare tactic to make herself feel better or get the change out of you she is looking for or something. As hard as it is, they are just papers. Maybe when and if it gets rolling, she will see more finances occuring and not such an easy path to go.
jandn...
I have given that some thought and though it may be a mute point at present, I decided that I wouldn't do it again. I can't displace myself enough to just let it be sex. That has been 1 of my biggest mistakes, it was what I allowed to get me where I am today
