I hate to admit, but part of me does because I'm waiting for her to have a shred of honesty with me ...
Yeah but isn't the truth that you are the one who has problems with honesty? That while you have been accusing her of cheating, not only now, but during the marriage, even though there has never been any evidence, you have been and during the marriage were reading her emails and phone bills?
Even today...
"I texted him yesterday to ask if Wed. worked for us to meet for me to give to him and he didn't respond (unlike him). I saw his feelings to W about the sitch. He thinks I'm "up to something""
This is why I rarely post because I just keeping posting the same thing. You are the only one you can work on and you really don't care about doing that, just about controlling her.