Take Away This Ball & Chain

[Sugar and Spice]

(((((Karen, Michelle, GFI, Dar, Jeff))))) Thanks to all of you for keeping up with the madness and helping through this.

I have been giving this whole thing a lot of thought and come to a couple of interesting conclusions. I think that anymore this whole situation is not so much about the Troll as it is about his just not wanting to stop gambling. I think he would rather I believe that its about her so that way he doesn't have to admit to me, let alone the kids or himself that he can't/won't stop gambling and that its more important than what is being done to our family. She is his excuse. To me, to her, but most of all...to himself. As long as he is "getting her through this" then he has the perfect excuse to continue to be addicted. She has no plans to quit so that justifies it.

Whatever, he will just have to figure it all out for himself. I got my papers signed and I'm taking them to the County Recorder's Office at lunch. He swears up and down he hasn't said anything to the Troll, but yesterday makes me wonder. The only thing that makes me think he hasn't told her, is all that would prove to her is that he doesn't trust her and thinks she is going to file with the DA. Who cares, they suck.

He was talking about A-Rod and Madonna this morning and I told him how I felt about it. I think A-Rod is a class-A piece of chit. I think he is a serial philanderer and Madonna is just an old, nasty ho. I was just saying what I thought about it and he asked if that was my round about way of hammering him and I told him if I was going to hammer him about his behavior that it certainly won't be in a round-about manner. I will come straight out with it. I sent him a text about it too and the gist of it was that I have actually a better understanding of how it can happen now because of our situation. When I had a married friend that was cheating on her husband I was much less tolerant of her reasonings/justifications than I am in my own situation. The reply I got was: I understand, if the shoe fits. I thought it was pretty interesting. I will try and post to all of you today. I have to get busy in my online class because I have to start taking my test and I have been truly slacking lately. Whod' a thunk it? Love you guys!