Girl - Very interesting that your journal entry from 2 years ago pretty much expresses the same "lost" husband feeling.
I think you are going to do just fine by taking control. Just be ready for some bumps in the road. First of all, you have the long wait in California. And you must ready yourself for the possibility that OW and your H may now be free to pursue a more serious R with each other. I know that working with them is going to be tough emotionally - that is probably the main reason company's have nepotism policies.
