KJ - Stop thinking like that. I know you've visited my thread a few times. I have had the same thoughts only to have them turn quickly. I know that will keep happening throughout this grueling process. Hang tough and lose the negative thoughts. I feel for you, I know how hard this is. Find a way to start thinking positive!
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"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.