All settled in 250 miles apart

[JWS]

Sunday was as good as the rest of the weekend. We for another dive then out to lunch with some very supportive friends. Although they are mad at W they are supportive of my plan and actions. Then I drove back to see her. We played with the dog at the park for an hour. That was very nice; we talked an entire hour about the other dogs in the park. It was very relaxed and fun.

This is kind of strange but worked out well. When I was diving I found a little kids toy truck. The kind that is only about two inches big. We use to always collect weird things we find down there so I picked it up. I told her that I had a present for her and she got a bit weird but then I gave her that. She seemed taken back because it was strange and not some sappy thing. She took it gratefully and really seemed to like it then back in the house it went up on her bookcase.

We went to dinner and really really enjoyed each other. It was like we were out two years ago, nothing to fight about just chatting. We joked and talked about work and school. I could tell she had a really good time the two times we saw each other this weekend. When it was time for me to leave she was not throwing me out. I had a long drive ahead and wanted to get to bed at a descent hour, but had we had another activity planned we could have done that too and had a good time.

At dinner I was so at peace. For those 40 mins nothing in the world mattered. I was enjoying the company of the person that I care for the most in this world and she seemed to enjoy me as well.

I am probably reading into this if not making it up. Still no ring on her finger witch I hate, but several times in the car and at dinner she seemed to be hiding her left hand, like she did not want me to see that or it made her uncomfortable. Not sure maybe in my head but it seemed deliberate.

Her folks are going to visit her next weekend and the weekend after she agreed to come up her for a friend’s bbq. It was sort of a bribe, that friend just finished law school and is giving her a bunch of text books. Plus we will exchange the puppy that weekend, so two weeks until we meet again.

Last note. When I got home I decide to tell her I was there safely. I have always done this after a drive and do it to anyone I visit. Even when she was not talking to me she still sent me a "here safe" text on a long drive. So I figured it could not hurt. It said "home safe good night :o)" and that was it. Never expected a replay. I instantly got ":o)" back. This is a tiny baby step but it made me feel great, she never replies to my texts. I sent her one on sat with now reply but she did ask about it on Sunday, so that was good too.

Ok next two weeks are all about ME!! No stressing worrying or wondering. If she wants to miss out on all the cool things we do here that is her problem but I won't. I realized did a lot of stressing over little things and they were starting to rule my life.

so I will run, hit the gym, ride my bike, play my guitar, work on my mustang, and enjoy friends, I will act as if we are good she is busy in school and can't be bothered for a bit because I know when I get to see her next.