mycroft69,

You are not going to know what is going on with you for some time. I know what you mean by the fact that you feel like you lost an arm or leg.

In my condition I felt like it would have been easier if my wife would have just died. At least there would have been answers. She's never coming back.

Please still talk to your SIL and BIL but do not ask them for help with her. Blood is thicker than water. Do not try and make your wife look bad to them. They will believe your wife over what you say everytime. Keep your conversation with them about other things than your wife. Keep the connection but detached about her.

I understand you. Don't give up.

I'll write more later...