She is basically doing whatever she wants at the expense of her family and at times looks like she cares but for the most part doesn't. It really is no way to live. I still love her, but I don't like her (is that a reverse speech?).
I feel the same way as you do. I don't "like" my H at all right now. But I just keep telling myself he is sick, he has mental illness, he has a disease. Because frankly he really does... This man is not the man I married, the thoughtful man who gave great surprises at Christmas or loved doing things with his family or was sweet... He is gone right now.
And I'm with you -- I'm sticking it out for the sake of my D and the slight hope that the old H's personality will show its head in some way again. I know in reality it will never be the same, but right now it's completely a sickness that has invaded him because he would never, ever, do this to his D. I know the real man behind this mask would not do that.
I have similar circumstances when I talk to my H when he is at work. He is fine, basically normal for the most part, and basically upbeat. I think it's part of "the act" that they put on for the rest of the world -- at least with my H, I think it is.
It sounds like you had a good weekend -- good for you! Happy Monday!
M 39 H 34 D 6 M almost 8 years T 11 years Bomb: 6/5/08
