Just read your message, LostPhil. I was giving up hope of seeing anything, when this thread was on WAW. Even here, at first. You don't know what it means to me to see your reply. I'm at work now, and almost in tears. My friends and fellow church-goers don't seem to understand what's going on with me (not that I really do). It's a relief to hear from someone who does. I have no relatives of my own in this county. Mine are one county south of this town. So, I've turned to some of her sisters and brothers for at least a "reaffirmed family connection," thinking they'd refuse to communicate with me because of Rose. From what you say, it sounds like that's not a good idea.

No one knows how empty it is in my apartment without her there. Or in the car. Or my life. I just feel so destitute and only partly here, like I've lost an arm or leg...but more than either.

Haven't visited the link you posted, but will; tnx. 3 weeks ago, read a list of emotional and verbal abuse descriptions posted on either Focus on the Family or Family Life, and was feeling more and more disheartened. Except where it mentione that the abuser may or could threaten pets or kill them. That was the only bright spot, because my wife's parakeet was extremely and terminally ill last summer and I did everything I could -- did not even allow money to be an object -- to save his life. But poor Buddy kept getting worse and died on January 31 this year.

Thank you, LostPhil. I need this.

Last edited by mycroft69; 07/21/08 03:39 PM.

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